Ok so its really early in the morning..and techinically really late at night, because i havent went to bed yet. I've been goin threw so much this summer, with the break up of me and my boyfriend...and i think about em everyday, and its killin me that i cant get him out of my head..ya know? i shouldnt have to feel this way, he left me for another woman, and i deserve more then that...but..why do i feel like i also deserve him?....if i known that being in love was this hard, i woudlve never invited him to dinner 11 months ago....but its not even that...its like hes the only person i felt really truly loved me, unconditionally...and its like if i dont have him..who do i have?...dont know my dad, my grandparents all died, my mom doesnt like me, i have no real friends...its like who loves me now that hes gone??......my life sucks so much, and i wanna have faith because i'm a christian...but...thats so hard to do right now....i feel like i could just curl up in a corner and die...and even worst then that, its so sad that i have absolutely no one to talk to....i have to turn to a blog, on my computer to vent....what do i do??